hearts day

Corridors were noisy and the screams, laughter and disses echoed from wall to wall. Amidst the chaos of lunch hour, I see you. Handing me a piece of paper. I remember saying ”what will I do with this?” in a sarcastic tone. You looked pisses not getting the joke. Then I said “I hate you… “ you looked surprised… then you smiled and said “I hate you too” I was talking to another friend when I heard you say that. I looked at you -- our eyes met, as it lingers with both of us bearing a half smile. I was happy seeing you smile. It was the first time in a long while. I looked at you in a made up angry face and waved bye.
This will be the last time that I will see you smile.

Jal it u na neun ddu nal gu ya
Bogosip eul gu ya!

drunken days

Help me forget… it was my primary reason,.. it was the empty feeling after making a decision.. I firmly believed it was the right thing to do but still doesn’t escape the fact that I am hurting. Shot one -- sets its tone, I thought through this I can forget, I did for a sec . As it sank through my Throat and felt the burn that made its mark running from my chest to my stomach. Thoughts of you sank too .. shot two.. shot three.. you ‘re still there. There is an innate desire for me to erase you. Shot four, I started feeling numb.. shot five, shot six shot seven—with every shot burning in, thoughts of you started to fade away.. And I was happy… at the moment. As the numbness creeps in and reached my heart, I was immobile. I stared blankly outside my bedroom window amazed by the distant light of the street lamp.




Then I couldn’t remember anymore.



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ga seum e apayo

suddenly I felt an emptiness in my chest. as I slowly emerge from the bed I felt that all air left the room. I was gasping for more air. panting.. then as I caught my breath I cried. I clenched my legs towards my chest as I tried wrapping everything with my arms. I wished I didn’t hear it from you, that was the hard part. Listening to every word like a needles raining and every pinch sinks in and pains me like a son of a bitch.

MY HEART ACHES.

I stayed lying there waiting the emptiness to subside…



but it didn’t.



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jolina

darkness drifts as the cold creeps slowly in my skin. The heavens cried as if there’s no tomorrow i was in the middle of everything. the door opened and the water rushed in. the people were shocked some even screamed. i went outside i am knee deep as waves made it seem higher. after a moment everything went silent. Amidst the distant murmurs, bargaining, and faint honking of vehicles i stood there enjoying that stillness as rain slowly kissed my forehead. it was a sudden booming sound that woke me and brought me back. then the man behind me said push! push!

then it hit me. it was not a dream.



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