I'm a loser.

Spinning, spiraling down and then I hit rock bottom. I really thought that it would be dark but suddenly everything is vivid, acid green aura with a bright-neon violet lining. My mind struggled to comprehend every color that my eyes absorb. I tried to reach for it but it seems impossible. I was left there gawping at its silent lucidity, luscious, stunning and hypnotizing me with its brilliance. Its beauty is incomparable, with its brilliance I felt my heart throb in harmony with a distant thud. Electric, confusing, gorgeous then a sudden blank.


I woke up clueless, the rays of the mid-morning sun blinded the sh*t out of me. dizzily I worked my way outside, tripping on the poor coordination of my every step . It was quiet, the sound of nearby traffic caught my attention I spun around searching signs of any living organism

none

I was still in trance but the faint memory of last night slowly creeps and making it more real. As I suddenly gasp for air it all came rushing to me, like a collection of billions and billions of still images racing down for me to comprehend. It stopped on the image that I tried burying as deep as I can. It was so real now so clear, the memory of you seared in my eyes and then I realize

I need more pills.




LOSER
a short story
12.2.8
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